Update on Life

I'm sorry it's been so long since I've updated, my mind has been turned into spaghetti in the past week and a half.

I went in for my biopsy this past Wednesday and I saw the specialist. He took a look at it and felt around, and concluded that a biopsy would be pointless and a waste of time. By the time we would get the results back( which would probably tell us something we already know), I could have had the surgery and prevented it from spreading further. AND if it turns out I don't have cancer, they will be able to find out what it is A LOT easier since I will already be cut open. He is now basically 90% sure it is cancer. My surgery is scheduled to be this Friday. I'm going in tomorrow for pre-operation crap.

I am still believing God for this miracle 100%, but I'm believing 110% for saved lives, expecially my family. So please pray for the people that will hear this story, that they will see the love of God through this situation, again, especially my family.

"My God, I am not, but you ARE." -My Epic

In this rough time, God has given me one of the most remarkable revelations I have ever been given, and it is something we will still never understand.

Whatever it is that I think I am, I am truly not. But, it is GOD, who is what I am.

No matter what I have accomplished, what I have done, how far I've gotten, how many people I've reached, how many times God has used me... I am still NOT... but God IS....

The only way I am getting through this is because "God IS". Everyday I wake up wondering why I have to go through this, why I have to feel this pain. I try and turn my back on God... but I just can't... I am nothing without Him, I am lost without Him.

The testimonies I am already getting from this have been unbelievable, just continue believing for more :-)

Thank you guys for everything.

God Bless.