Jesus>Cancer

It is unbelievable how fast your life can change. It can be in a matter of days... or even seconds.

As many of you may know already, I've had pain for about a week now in my... let's say, reproductive organs (my attempt to keep my blog clean). Yesterday, my birthday, it got so bad that I had to go to the hospital. As we walked in, we were all making jokes, because honestly, it was really funny at the time. BUT, after six hours of being in the hospital and eventually getting an ultrasound, the doctor came in and told me that they found a mass in it... and he said it is very likely that it is cancer. Of course that is the "long story short" version though.

It honestly never really hit me until I left the hospital and I just broke down by myself, crying out to God. I went back to the church (by this time, half the world knew), and just found myself in the arms of so many loving people.

That night I have never seen so many people truly care about me in my entire life... between all the phone calls, text messages, and prayers, I don't think a "thank you" is enough. I'm speechless.

Last night I got home at about midnight and just found my self in a place where I felt like my life was crumbling. I was so broken and so humbled that all I could do was sit at the feet of Jesus and let Him heal the pain I was feeling.

I would just like to say that today was one of the most peaceful days I have ever had in my entire life... because there is only one answer to this kind of obstacle...and that is the finished work of the cross.

I'm posting this blog for two reasons and I want to close with them:

Number one, I'm saying right now, in the name of Jesus Christ, that there will be a future blog that is going to include how God has healed me of this and rid my body of it. Whatever it is, I refuse to let this in my life.

And number two, please pray for me, obviously for healing, but this second reason(the main reason I posted this blog) is to PLEASE pray that this situation will only be a mirror of what God can do in others' lives'... I want nothing more than Jesus' name to be heard through this. If this story is ever told to anyone, I don't want my name to be included in it, because I am nothing without God, anything I am is because of Him. Let this story/situation just glorify Him, let it inspire others' to stand up against the things of this world and push through the obstacles that are thrown our way everyday by seeking the over abundant love and grace of God. The only source of joy and strength in my life right now is our Father in heaven and I could not do this on my own. I want nothing more than for Him to get all praise and glory for it. Again, I ask that you would just keep this situation in your prayers, that this time in my life will display the love of God, and let it have nothing to do with me.

Thank you guys so much.

God Bless