The Intricacies of Turmoil

Sometimes it is just so hard to let go of things when they are still affecting your life a few months later. It's so hard to let your best friends just walk out of your life, when you have no control over it. You just feel left, abandoned, with NOTHING, as they go on to EVERYTHING. Don't get me wrong, God has brought me more friends that are just more than I could ever ask for, but when you've given your ENTIRE life spiritually, physically, and mentally to those people who have walked on to other things, it hurts.

I stopped by a show tonight to see my friends' band, The Abandoned, and ended up seeing the aftermath of some of the damage that was done, and it breaks my heart because I can't do anything about it, but I'm getting the blunt force for it, even though it wasn't my fault.

I feel like there is a huge burden on my chest with my ex-girlfriend as well. I'm not a person who just walks away without saying sorry, or just walks away knowing someone has a problem with me. Hebrews 12:14- "Make every effort to live at peace with all men and to be Holy." And I'm in a situation where I have to walk away and there is nothing more I can do.

I feel like I'm just being reminded of how much I need Jesus, and what I would be without him... I would be NOTHING. It is very stereotypical, but sometimes it's so easy to forget the elementary truths of your faith that everyone learns in Sunday school.

On that note, life has been confusing, but God is SO great, and I'm believing for so many great things to happen.

P.S. Fasting all this week. I encourage anyone to participate. If you don't want to do the whole week, then at least fast from some kind of meal on Tuesday to pray for my friend Lizzie's Dad and her family. Their situation is one that is no longer in Lizzie's hand and is truly going to take a supernatural act of God to change it. Just pray that God would take the blindfold Satan has placed on her Dad's eyes, off, and would reveal himself to him. Not too include, God just shedding his light upon him.

It is very often we forget that some things only come by prayer AND fasting.

Thank you guys.

God Bless

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